The Hugo Awards As Wake-Up Call
Monday, August 22nd, 2011I did not attend Renovation (Worldcon) this year. In fact, I’ve never been to a Worldcon, despite Dr. Cmar telling me what a wonderful event it is. Money, blah, family commitments, blah, work, blah blah blah; all the usual excuses surface and I sit watching the tweetstream with all the other folks who wished they’d gone.
(Does anyone else think that nothing fosters deep-seated envy like watching your friends Tweet their delight while you sit in your home, nursing a Jameson’s and folding laundry? Not that I’d know, of course. Nope. Nuh-uh.)
One of the things I have always wanted to see is the presentation of the Hugo Awards. For years, the Hugos have informed the to-be-read pile of books on my nightstand. Even as I have become bitter and jaded, utterly disappointed in the vast majority of what publishers are churning out of their sausage factories, the Hugos have been a beacon of quality. For that, I am eternally grateful.
This year, the Hugos were streamed live on UStream and I finally had the chance to watch as the awards were presented. I was excited, tuning in on my laptop, watching the geek and adorably lame banter between the hosts, sharing in the delight of the award winners. Watching Chris Garcia cry with joy as he received the Hugo for Best Fanzine alone was worth it. To a person, you could see the love all of the award winners have for this community, the tight-knit bonds of friendship between authors and artists.
Delight. Wonder. Joy. Love. It was amazing to see.
As I watched…I had one unsettling realization, one that is not uncommon when a person hits their fortieth birthday, as I had this past year. In my mind, the winners of Hugos were always substantially older than I was. When I see “Hugo,” I am instantly transported back to when I was twelve years old, when the winners were all masters, far outpacing me in age, wisdom, and skill. This year, watching, I realized that some of these folks were my age or younger. Seeing them, my blood ran a bit cold.
There is an old joke/maxim that says that one of the major turning points in a man’s life is when he realizes that he is older than the current Playboy centerfold. I felt shades of that watching these folks who had, somehow, amdist having real lives and careers somehow managed to string words together in ways that other people appreciated enough to givie them an award for it. Two thoughts occurred to me; 1) When did that star-struck twelve year old wannabe writer become a forty-year-old stick in the mud? and 2) What am I waiting for?
Those thoughts made me realize my problem; the fear of starting. The fear of being crap, the fear of not knowing how to begin, how to persevere, how to finish, how to market the finished work. To invoke a bit of Joseph Campbell, I fear setting off the well-worn road of suburban life and career ennui to forge my own path that would be more fulfilling but economically less stable. How stupid. How cowardly. How utterly practical, and how utterly disappointing.
All too often, I believe we fail to achieve goals because of “Real Life.” We “grow up” and put our dreams on a shelf, and it takes a shock to remind us of that wonder we felt, that delight a well-formed story can give us, the joy of sharing that wonder and delight others, and the love we have for big ideas that transport us elsewhere. The realization that “Real Life” is what we make of it is one that opens doors, not one that places your livelihood or your family in jeaopardy.
I’m grateful for the wake up call. I can feel that twelve-year-old’s wonder and delight starting to stir in my chest. I can set the “mature” jaded thoughts aside and embrace the joy and love of the genre, the people, the ideas, the words.
I have work to do. How about you?



I’ve found that, while trying to write this review, that keeping things spoiler-free when you’re covering a series well into its lifespan is not so much easy. Nonetheless, I want to share my thoughts of A Dance With Dragons, which I managed to finish last Wednesday. I think I can sum up the experience of reading this book in a word representing the one thing of which this tome seemed to have a decided lack:
At last, we’re back with a new podcast episode. In this bundle of joy:
Fool Moon by Jim Butcher. The second Dresden Files novel is really about werewolves (as if you couldn’t guess from the title), but it’s Dresden and I’m sure he must have had dealings with vampires at some point.
Quick! Name three Russian science-fiction writers. Yes, you can count the Strugatsky brothers as two, if you absolutely must, but you shouldn’t have to. You’ve got Lukyanenko (Night Watch, Day Watch), of course, and Gluhkovsky (Metro 2033, basis for the video game of the same name) and Tolstoy (the other one, who wrote The Garin Death Ray instead of Anna Karenina)…the list goes on and on.
Finnish science fiction does exist, but there’s slight hurdle that must be overcome before I can actually read any of it: Suomalainen, the Finnish language. Apart from a handful of terms related to misbehaving, sawing lumber and cursing at farm animals, I can neither speak nor read Finnish. In order to experience Finnish science fiction, I’ll either need to learn the language or find English translations.





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